Faythann Fallon shares her courageous story with #Changingthefaceofbeauty!

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Growing up, I never really felt insecure or embarrassed by the fact that I was in a wheelchair. Having a wheelchair was a norm for me, I didnt see it as something that made me a complete outsider. I only saw it as something that gave me freedom and independence. I still see it like that to this day.

Growing up, my insecurities and embarrassments came more from how my body looked. The bone disease I was born with left me to mature with uneven shoulders, a differently shaped chest, and a very short stature for my age.

When I was younger, of course, I didnt really notice how different my body was. I was too focused on playing outside with my friends. I was too concerned about what Disney movie I was going to watch before bed. I was comfortable in my body.

It wasnt until middle school where I started to realize how different my body was from everyone elses. I think disability or no disability, a lot of people have that realization around that pre-teen age. Its the age where adults tell you that youre going to go through changes. Its the age where the health teacher comes into your class to pop in an awkward video about puberty. Basically, its an age very few want to go back to.

It was this point in my life where I wanted so badly for my body to look like the other girls. I would try my hardest to dress like how a majority of them dressed only to face the reality that the clothes didnt fit my body like I expected them too. I had to face the reality that soon the clothes I wanted to wear would very rarely be found in a size that could fit me. Safe to say, these were pretty frustrating realizations.

My breaking point, though, was when I finally went to go purchase my first bra. Now, if any of you have read a Judy Blume book, youd know that buying your first bra is a pretty big deal. Its up there with getting your period and liking a boy (which, though I loved Judys books, arent the greatest experiences honestly). Anyway, I remember I picked out two that looked so cool and mature. In all reality, they were pretty average-looking bras, but pre-teen me was stoked about them.

When I got home I wasted no time trying one on and throwing a shirt over it to see what it would look like. I remember how uncomfortable it felt because it didnt fit my chest perfectly. I remember seeing how lumpy it looked under the shirt. I remember feeling absolutely and positively drained.

I just couldnt understand why my body had to look the way it did. It wasnt until I was absolutely sick of feeling this way that I tried to turn my thinking around. I started feeling a bit better about my body in high-school once I realized that this is my body. Its the only body Im going to get and I need to take care of it. I didnt need my body to look the way society promotes bodies to look. I needed to look like me.

The older I get the more representation I see of women with disabilities. Theres models, beauty vloggers, actresses, business women, etc. Though I see that representation, I definitely believe there needs to be more of that representation in the media. Tons more.

I often wonder if I wouldve struggled as much as I did if I saw more representation as a kid. I like to think I would’ve struggled less, just like how I like to think about today’s representation possibly helping out someone who has faced the same struggles that I have.

Now, though I feel better about my body, this doesnt mean that my insecurities are completely gone. I still have those days where I just dont feel comfortable. Where I feel like there are so many bits and pieces I wish I could change. But, those days make the days where I love my body feel ten times brighter.

To anyone who can relate to what I have shared, I know its frustrating. But, please know that working towards loving your body is completely worth it. Its hard work, I wont lie to you about that. Like I said, I still have days where I dont like what I see in the mirror. At the end of the day, though, that is your body. Its unique and beautiful because its yours. Please take care of it and please take care of yourself. If I learned anything from my experiences, self-love is one of the best kinds of love.

This blog post was first published www.theodysseyonline.com and written by Faythann Fallon.

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  • Susan Trainor

    I knew you as a baby. Your mom was so gentle with you, but you’d get a break anyway. I think that was a hard time for her. And I knew your dad, we’d car pool when one of us had car problems. He’s a very kind man, he worked at princess house at the time and gave me a beautiful lasagne pan for his gratitude.
    I now have Multiple Sclerosis. He helped me find hand controls so I could drive. I knew the struggles he went through also. Then finding each other on Facebook I got to see the beautiful picture young lady you are.
    I am able to keep positive as my mobility declines. Because of you and your family I am so blessed to you all of you.
    You are a courageous young lady and I wish you the best on your entrepreneur pursuits.

  • terry brumm

    My dear Faythann,
    To tell you you are amazing would be something less than you are. You are a very strong young woman..
    You are overcoming something that changed your life.. what strength you have. You move my heart to much gratitude.
    Love you wise woman. You are an example for all to follow and and an angel..Terry

  • Lori

    What an amazing beautiful young lady. Beautiful inside and out. I’ve known your dad a very long time and I have to say that both him and your mom have raised a very talented and beautiful daughter. I look forward to reading more from you in the future. Good luck with everything you do in life you are an exceptional young soul.

  • Crystal Robbins

    Awesome story….young lady!

  • Sandra Bowser

    Faythann you are beautiful inside and out. I really enjoyed reading your blog. Life is definitely a challenge, moreso for those with disabilities. You have great insight and I admire that in you. There needs to be more people with disabilities, who will share their life experiences with the non disabled, to bridge the gap. We are all different, God doesn’t make diamonds that that don’t sparkle. I work with children with disabilities, they are all different and I love them all. Your voice is one that needs to be heard, you can be one to help change the worlds view on how people with disabilities deal with life challenges. Great job!

  • Barbara A Ferry

    Dear Faith Ann, I’ve known you for a little while, being you’re TA in grammar school. Your courage impressed me when I would see you dancing with all the rest of the kids from your wheelchair & being an intelligent student. Nothing held you back.
    You were & are an amazing person.
    God Bless you in all you do

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